Dear Jacob,
How do you pick up the pieces of a broken heart? Will it be remade to wholeness? How does one live in the shadow of the truth that you can never truly have someone totally? What must i do to get over the reality that my sister is now your wife and i am to wait another seven years before we can marry? What must a girl do to live with that?
My heart is torn and i cry out day and night but no one hears me. My eyes are dried with tears - they are my only companion nowadays even as i wait for you to be mine... something i'm not really sure would happen. What do i do Jacob? How will i live my life like this? How can i be made whole again? Answer me.
It is this brutal truth of not being able to love you totally. I don't even know if i can believe in love again. May God forgive me for that. And if He is really there, i hope He helps me find a way to be whole again.
Rachel
