Dear Jacob,
You married my sister. My heart is beyond broken. I was stowed away on the night we were to be together. I tried stopping them from taking Leah to you... but I was weak.
I don't know how you feel about this but please know that I did not know father had planed all this. Please don't be angry with me. If you only knew how i cried... i cried till there were no more tears in my eyes... i don't know how i can ever come near you again... it breaks my heart to know that i will never be the first woman in your life... and yet, i'm still hoping that things would get better... maybe i'm just meant to be your sister but i'm not sure if i can accept that... i've come to love you in a different way... in a good way... like how a woman must love her man... that's how i feel and now it's taken away from me.
i don't know what to say anymore... i fear i may not have the words to utter to you... all i can think of is goodbye...
rachel
